Yup. I've got it. I've got the baby itch. At first I thought it would pass, but it's been a few weeks and I still feel the need for another little one! I'm a total nut because at this time, lil monster is a handful as it is. Plus work is tough, and i'm still working towards my counseling license. And we're still trying to rebuild our finances. We don't own a home, we rent. So it's just not the right time. But i can't help but miss the "new baby" smell. The newborn cry. The breastfeeding (yes ladies, I kinda miss that too). I miss having a little one that I can cuddle for an hour straight and baby being in total bliss over it. Lil monster is just growing up too fast. And I think that is the major reason why I'm feeling this way. He's such a little person now. With his own personality, his own decisions... ::sigh:: and he'll keep growing and growing from here! Next thing you know he'll be saying "C'mon ma, you're like sooo embarrassing!" arghh... I am not in a rush for that to happen. I just have to take a step back and make sure that I'm feeling these things for the right reason. I've mentioned my thoughts here and there to the hubby, but he hasn't really taken me seriously. I mean, he knows that it's definitely not the right time for us. But I can't help but dream of our baby #2 (maybe a little girl, woop!). I can't wait to see how lil monster treats his lil sibling. It's funny cuz I was helping in the Nursery at church today, and holding the little infants made this mama itch for a baby even more! And you know what MY little ankle biter did? He tried to push the 6 month old outta my hands, and even went as far as to pull her little hair! I was mortified. Very. In any event, it was nice to be around the little babies, even if only for 2 hours. It definitely confirmed that having more children is in my heart, but now if my finances and busy schedule could hop on board - that would be awesome!
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Me too! I don't have any kids, but my hubby and I have been talking about babies for the past 2 months off and on. I also served in my church's nursery this morning and got to look after a 4 month old (at least that's how old I think she was). She was so cute. While my husband was waiting for me, he said a kid came up to him because he saw him playing a game on his iPhone, so they started playing the game together. That made him think about it again. It just doesn't seem like the right time for us either though.
ReplyDeleteI have one thing to say ... girl, are you crazy?! ;) As a mama who has the SAME AGED CHILD THAT YOU DO, I can tell you this: I most definitely do NOT have the baby bug, fever, or anything else. ;) I'll be praying for you!
ReplyDeleteHahahaha @mamamarchand! You better let me know when your TTC and I'll be hopping on board with the quickness!! ;)
ReplyDeleteI understand how you feel! We waited 8 years for our first and I "itched" nearly the whole time! Since then, though, we just haven't had any time to get "itchy" again as we have 2 under 3 and I'm pregnant again. Finances are really tight, but we get by. Things are hectic, but we wouldn't change it for the world!
ReplyDeleteWhen the time is right t it will all fall into place! But I know how you feel. My daughter is 9 months and I think she is goring so fast. I often think what it would be like to have another and quickly realize I would go crazy with a newborn right now! Happy SOC!
ReplyDeleteStephanie~
It's good to know your heart. I never felt the right time to have a second and as a result, I never have. Now, my 4 1/2 year old is ALL little boy and I'm finally understanding why people say their kids get too big to cuddle. Luckily, I borrow toddlers and babies here and there.
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