Yup. I've got it. I've got the baby itch. At first I thought it would pass, but it's been a few weeks and I still feel the need for another little one! I'm a total nut because at this time, lil monster is a handful as it is. Plus work is tough, and i'm still working towards my counseling license. And we're still trying to rebuild our finances. We don't own a home, we rent. So it's just not the right time. But i can't help but miss the "new baby" smell. The newborn cry. The breastfeeding (yes ladies, I kinda miss that too). I miss having a little one that I can cuddle for an hour straight and baby being in total bliss over it. Lil monster is just growing up too fast. And I think that is the major reason why I'm feeling this way. He's such a little person now. With his own personality, his own decisions... ::sigh:: and he'll keep growing and growing from here! Next thing you know he'll be saying "C'mon ma, you're like sooo embarrassing!" arghh... I am not in a rush for that to happen. I just have to take a step back and make sure that I'm feeling these things for the right reason. I've mentioned my thoughts here and there to the hubby, but he hasn't really taken me seriously. I mean, he knows that it's definitely not the right time for us. But I can't help but dream of our baby #2 (maybe a little girl, woop!). I can't wait to see how lil monster treats his lil sibling. It's funny cuz I was helping in the Nursery at church today, and holding the little infants made this mama itch for a baby even more! And you know what MY little ankle biter did? He tried to push the 6 month old outta my hands, and even went as far as to pull her little hair! I was mortified. Very. In any event, it was nice to be around the little babies, even if only for 2 hours. It definitely confirmed that having more children is in my heart, but now if my finances and busy schedule could hop on board - that would be awesome!
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